Nobody's perfect..
Sadly, last night or should just this early morning (around 1:00am), pinagalitan na naman ako. She locked the gate.. Sinabunutan ako ni Mama. I can't remember when was the last time na nagawa nya sakin yun. I controlled my temper. Ayoko syang patulan, dahil Mama ko sya. Guston kong sumagot sa mga pinaparatang nya, pero hindi ko ginawa, dahil mataas ang paggalang ko sa Mama ko. Kahit may mga salita na syang sinasabi na hindi naman talaga ao ganun. Tumahimik lang ako for the whole time. I didn't dare to open my mouth, neither to utter any word.
She told me things that I've already knew. She's saying it over and over again. It's kinda irritating. I find it very weird! Yes, very weird. Yet, I kept my mouth shut! I respect her. She's my mother. Everything about me is meaningless without her.
"..graduating ka, di mo ba naisip yun?"
(Naisip ko yun, at lagi kong naiisip. Sino bang ayaw magtapos ng pag-aaral?)
"..siguro, may boyfriend ka na talaga."
(Wala akong BF. I kept my promise.)
"..pag inulit mo pa yan, palalayasin na talaga kita!"
(At pag nangyari yun, hindi ko alam kung saang kangkongan ako pupulutin.)
"..sabi ko sa'yo, wag muna yang enjoy-enjoy na yan!"
(Life is boring without it. Pero, sige.)
Those where just some of the conversations Mama has told me.
And the phrases enclosed with a parenthesis were the things how I'd wish to say. But, then again, I didn't.
I am not angry. I understand it.
It's just that.. They didn't trust me that much.
Yes, because I'm still young.
Ma. Sorry again. :(
Love,
slpnivera*