it's EMPTY

Parang nabibilisan ako sa mga araw. I mean, parang kelan lang.. January. Tapos biglang May 30 na pala agad. Wuh! At, baka di ko mapansin.. I'm near to my real life (life after grad) Wala lang. It's kinda confusing. I mean, kinda frustrating. Kaya ko 'to! God is with me, all the way :)

This blog is empty. Swear. Hahaha. Wala lang. Just wanted to post something. Though wala naman talaga akong pinaka-point. Hmmm..

The Wrong Way

by RainDreamer

The wrong way, no one ever does this, We're the best of friends but at one time longed to kiss, We have done things in opposite array, But for us maybe God intended it this way. I ended it all with following words from a friend, From a pretend friend, who wanted my world to end. You were my world, each breathe I took, everything I dreamed, A friendship shouldn't come from this, but amazingly through the dark it beamed. Maybe my mistake was some sign, That you were meant to just be a great friend of mine. I am feeling happy that we are still so close, Even though we don't shared what I wanted most. For now I understand what I have gained from all this, A special friend, someone who for not one moment do I want to miss.

chedeng, not now

Wooot.XD

Until now, hindi pa rin mabura sa isipan ko si Pareng Ondoy.

And if I'm not mistaken, that was 2 years ago.

Hay. Wag naman sanang manalasa ng matindi.

Though, minsan.. Gusto kong umulan ng super malakas. Hahahahaha. Pag ganun kasi, possibilities are.. Walang pasok. Hahaha. (Tamad talaga eno? Haha!) Masarap pati matulog. Saka, pinaka-benefit is that.. makakapag muni-muni ng super tagal. In short, makakapag-EMO! :D

Well, here.. I have something to share :)

I really super duper uber love this song.

Actually, just a share. NUng debut ko, last year.. Dapat kasama 'to sa songs ng 18 roses ko e.. But, unfortunately, I haven't have the time para hanapin 'tong kantang 'to. Lyrics nga lang ang alam ko dito e. Hahahahahaha. "..You're my moon, river.. dream maker.. a beautiful.."

WISH THAT I COULD TELL YOU

by BabyFace

Last song syndrome (lss)

I like this one!

If I'm not mistaken.. This song was shared by Ma'am Weena :)

Thanks to her :)

Hope you all like this too. Happy listening!

CALIFORNIA KING BED

by Rihanna

Chest to chest 

Nose to nose 

Palm to palm 

We were always just that close 

Wrist to wrist 

Toe to toe 

Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose 

So how come when I reach out my finger 

It feels like more than distance between us 

In this California king bed 

We're ten thousand miles apart 

I bet california wishing on these stars 

For your heart for me 

My Californa king 

Eye to eye 

Cheek to cheek 

Side by side 

You were sleeping next to me 

---oohhh next to me 

Arm in arm 

Dusk to dawn 

With the curtains drawn 

And a little last night on these sheets 

So how come when I reach out my fingers 

It seems like more than distance between us 

In this California king bed 

We're ten thousand miles apart 

I bet California wishing on the stars 

For your heart for me 

My Californa King 

Just when I felt like giving up on us 

You turned around and gave me one last touch 

That made everything feel better 

And even then my eyes got wetter 

So confused, when I asked you if you love me 

But I don't wanna seem so weak 

Maybe I've been California dreaming 

In this california king bed 

We're ten thousand miles apart 

I bet California wishing on these stars 

For your heart for me 

My Californa King 

My California King 

In this california king bed 

We're ten thousand miles apart 

I bet california wishing on these stars 

For your heart for me 

My California King

what else is new?

Haha. Gusto ko yang linya na yan.. Wala lang. Just heard from a teleserye, Mara Clara.

Oh, speaking of NEW.

Here's a song or should I say, lyrics.

I love this song! But, I love Sarah more :)

KUNG SIYA ANG MAHAL

by Sarah Geronimo

Bakit ba kailangan pang

Damdamin ay ilihim mo sa akin na may iba

Kung di mo na ako mahal

Tatanggapin kung siya ang nasa puso

Pagbibigyan kita

Kung sya ang 'yong mahal

Aminin mo ng malaman

Nang di ako nagtatanong

Kung sino ang higit na kailangan

Kung siya ang 'yong mahal

Ay hahayaan kong ikaw ay di ko na makikita

Sa akin ay mabuti pa ang mag-isa

Di ko inaasahan na

Damdamin mo sa akin magbabago

May kulang ba?

Sadyang hindi pa ba sapat

Lahat pati na ang aking pag-ibig 

Sayo ay binigay ko na

Kung sya ang 'yong mahal

Aminin mo ng malaman

Nang di ako nagtatanong

Kung sino ang higit na kailangan

Kung siya ang 'yong mahal

Ay hahayaan kong ikaw ay di ko na makikita

Sa akin ay mabuti pa ang mag-isa

Paano kaya lilimutin

Ang sa ating nagdaang kahapon 

Alam ko naman kung minsa'y hindi nagtatagal 

Ang isang pagmamahalan katulad ng pag-ibig mo

Kung sya ang mahal

Aminin mo ng malaman

Nang di ako nagtatanong

Kung sino ang higit na kailangan

Kung siya ang mahal

Ay hahayaan kong ikaw ay di ko na makikita

Sa akin ay mabuti pa ang mag-isa

Sa akin ay mabuti pa ang mag-isa... 

ucpb? ford?

May mga pagkakataon lang talaga siguro sa buhay ko na.. I have to make a choice. I have to weigh things out. Things na kailangan kong mamili. Ang hirap pala no? Lalo na kapag napalapit ka na sa mga taong nakasama mo na rin sa mahabang panahon.

* United Coconut Planters Bank (UCPB) - Sta. Rosa

..masaya dyan! Happiness everyday, every hour, every minute and also, every second :)

Marami akong natutunan syempre! Mga real-life-lessons. Mga tunay na tao. Mga nakakatawang araw.. Mga branch-date-outside. Basta. I have my real family inside and out :)

* Ford Motors Company, Phils. - TechnoPark

..though di pa ako nagsisimulang mag-OJT, I can sense na mag eenjoy din naman ako. Let's see :) Kasama ko naman na dito sina Bela at Nica. Kaya sigurado akong masaya nga to. Wishy wish! ^^

At the end of this day.. I still have both. In my heart, I would still look up with these two big names.

Thank you Lord for giving this kind of experience.

I've been really blessed since the day that I was born :)

Love & Care,

owner of this blog :)

i am not perfect..

Nobody's perfect..

Sadly, last night or should just this early morning (around 1:00am), pinagalitan na naman ako. She locked the gate.. Sinabunutan ako ni Mama. I can't remember when was the last time na nagawa nya sakin yun. I controlled my temper. Ayoko syang patulan, dahil Mama ko sya. Guston kong sumagot sa mga pinaparatang nya, pero hindi ko ginawa, dahil mataas ang paggalang ko sa Mama ko. Kahit may mga salita na syang sinasabi na hindi naman talaga ao ganun. Tumahimik lang ako for the whole time. I didn't dare to open my mouth, neither to utter any word.

She told me things that I've already knew. She's saying it over and over again. It's kinda irritating. I find it very weird! Yes, very weird. Yet, I kept my mouth shut! I respect her. She's my mother. Everything about me is meaningless without her.

"..graduating ka, di mo ba naisip yun?"

(Naisip ko yun, at lagi kong naiisip. Sino bang ayaw magtapos ng pag-aaral?)

"..siguro, may boyfriend ka na talaga."

(Wala akong BF. I kept my promise.)

"..pag inulit mo pa yan, palalayasin na talaga kita!"

(At pag nangyari yun, hindi ko alam kung saang kangkongan ako pupulutin.)

"..sabi ko sa'yo, wag muna yang enjoy-enjoy na yan!"

(Life is boring without it. Pero, sige.)

Those where just some of the conversations Mama has told me.

And the phrases enclosed with a parenthesis were the things how I'd wish to say. But, then again, I didn't.

I am not angry. I understand it.

It's just that.. They didn't trust me that much.

Yes, because I'm still young.

Ma. Sorry again. :(

Love,

slpnivera*

MEET MY MOTHER :)

Happy Mother's Day!

(May 8)

Late eno? Tsk. So sorry :(

Anyways, babawi ako.

My mother's name is ALMA GULAY POSTANES.

Though she has two surnames. And I ain't sure kung anong ginagamit nya now.

ALMA P. NIVERA & ALMA P. ALONZO :)

    

*5 things I love the most about my mother.

1. DEFINE PINAKAMABAIT. Super! As in. Yun yung tipong magkagalit kami ngayon, but few minutes later.. kakausapin na nya ako. So kind. A very wonderful model of all mother in the world :)

2. SWEET WIFE. I admit, kay Mama ko yata nakuha yung kakornihan ko :D Sweet wife sya kay Daddy. Lalo na pag lagi silang magkasama. I swear.. The best! Holding hands, sweet talks, kulitan, tawanan nila together. True love isn't it? :)

3. VERY RELIGIOUS. Though, I won't deny na she was once a nun. Madre po si Mama before she was totally a mother to us :) I remember, nung grade 5 ako, I wish to be a nun also. But, as I grow up, hahaha :D naku! Prayerful si Mama :) She is super God-fearing. She always tell us na.. "Magdasal.. Magdasal." Even my Daddy, prayerful din. Way back when, we always pray together at 3:00 in the afternoon. We're so blessed. We feel so blessed! Love God above all.

4. SUPPORTIVE MOTHER. Sa aming tatlong anak nina Mama at Daddy, si Mama na yata ang may pinaka mahabang pasensya sa lahat. Sya yung tipong.. badtrip na kaming lahat, and then sya, tatahimik lang, no comment, she'll balance things out before she speak up. Amazing. I idolized my Lola Tibay on how she raised up my loving mother. And, on how my mother raised us up. As an additional, si Mama yung tipong.. pag may sinabi kang problema, she'll probably understand it. Syempre, sa una magagalit sya. Pero, sooner, she'll help you cope up with it :)

5. Lastly, STRICT YET MODERN RULES. Haha! Ay naku. The best si Mama pagdating sa mga rules! Specifically, sa mga superstitious beliefs :D Though, she is still flexible na generation now is far behind from their generation before. Ayon. Pero, as much as possible, I do explain things naman kapag di nya nage-gets yung gusto kong i-impost.

LOVE YOUR MOTHERS. SOON, YOU'LL BECOME MOTHERS TOO :)

"Wag kang magsalita ng patapos.."

- Mama

I LOVE YOU MAMA! :)

Your loving daughter,

Raine ^^

A BREATH OF FRESH AIR :)

Finally, after a month of keeping it to myself.. nasabi ko na rin kay Mama :) It took me huge of courage para sabihin kay Mama yun! Wuh! Though wala naman akong intensyon na itago. It just takes time.. At ayon nga. Nasabi ko na rin. Hmm. Isa pa lang yan sa mga kailangan kong ayusin. Marami pa akong prob, though I lift it up to God. Bahala naaaa :)

Bukas, would be my last day sa UCPB :(

Alam mo yung feeling na.. you don't want to do, but you have to.

Anyways, mamimiss ko sila. Silang lahat! Huhuhu :(

I can't wait the moment na grumaduate ako. Ang sarap siguro ng feeling no? Parang super worth it! Hay. I'm on my way there. Magsisikap ako just to finish my study! Papatunayan kong deserving akong grumaduate. Tapos, magtatrabaho ako. Magkakapera at tutulungan ko sina Mama at Papa :) Ibabalik ko sa kanila lahat lahat ng suporta na ibingay nila sakin. Sa mga panahong nagtatrabaho sila ng mabuti. Babawi ako! I'll be the bread winner of our family.

Love? Lovelife? Time will come. Soon. By God's will! Pero, syempre family first :)

And that's all for now readers :)

(kung meron man. hahaha!)

"Lord, please don't trust me this much.."

Always,

Sofy :)

CLOSER TO ITS FINALE

January 20, 2011

- it was my first in my ojt.. nakaka-ilang oras na rin pala ako sa UCPB.

Before my first day, I wrote a simple diary the night before that day. My expectations and etc. Sbi ko pa.. "Sana I can create a good relationship with them.." At hindi ako nabigo :) Noong una, I was really so quite in my cubicle/territory as what they've told me. Hahahahaha. Tahimik daw ako? Watta joke! :)))))))))))))))))))))))))) Ganun lang talaga ako, syempre kinakapa ko pa ang bago kong kapaligiran. Kinikilala ang bawat isa.. Ang kanilang ugali, ginagawa at mga bagay bagay na kailangan kong malaman. Noong una, nabagot ako. Tinamad. Parang hindi ako makakatagal sa ganung estado. Dumating pa nga sa point na kahit tanggap na ako dun, naghahanap pa rin ako ng ibang company. And I've said to myself, "tatagal kaya ako?" I doubted. I screwed up. I don't live by it!

Days passed. Natutunan ko silang pakibagayan. Masaya pala. Nakakatuwa pala. At higit sa lahat, napalapit sila sa puso ko. Sounds cheesy right? Pero, totoo yun. Mahal ko sila. Silang lahat na bumubuo ng UCPB - Sta. Rosa branch.

Months passed. Mas lalo ko silang nakikilala. Mas lalo kong napatunayan sa sarili ko na MASAYA :) Masaya kasi kwela! And that is what I'm really into, KWELA. Kalog pati ang mga employee. Tawa dito. Tawa doo. Tawa. Tawa. Tawa. TAWA :D

THE BRANCH.

***

ROLLY ROBINOL (Branch Manager/BM)
* Sir Rolly.. si Sir? Mabait. Noong nag-apply ako ng ojt, sya yung uminterview saken. Akala ko nga di ako matatanggap e. Malakas ang boses nya. Malalaman mong matalino at tunay na edukado. Noong una, hindi ko gaanong vibes si Sir, kasi minsan lang naman sya sa office. Busy person po sya. Meetings ganun. Pero, noong nababati ko na sya, parang komportable na rin ako na biruin sya. Vibes! At, hindi ko malilimutan noong gabing hinatid nya ako.. Haha. Nakalibre ako ng pamasahe noon. Nangutang pa ako, e ihahatid naman pala ako. I was not expecting that though. First time ko nga na makakasakay sa sasakyan ni Sir e. Ganun pala yung feeling kapag may sasakyan ka. Iwas usok. Iwas traffic. Iwas init. Saka cool! Haha. To end this, si Sir Rolly yung tipo ng Sir na makakasundo mo kapag pinatunayan mo sa kanyang dapat ka nyang pagkatiwalaan.

-- break muna :)

Hugas pinggan. Brb!

HANNAH MENDOZA (Branch Officer/BOO)
* Ma'am Hannah.. si Ma'am? Tahimik lang pero maingay din pala. Hahaha! Noong una, tingin ko sa kanya, masungit. Parang isang tanong, isang sagot. Ganun. Kaya nga pag may pinapagawa sya saken, I'm really trying my best na hindi magkamali. Kasi baka pagalitan ako. Pero, hindi nya pa ako napapagalitan :) First impression lasts. Kaya kahit medyo vibes ko na rin si Ma'am, hindi pa rin nawawala sa isip ko na masungit sya. Pero, mabait po sya. Tawa din ng tawa! :D A very caring Mom to her kids (Mika & Miguel). A very loving wife to Sir Mike (he sometimes called me by my name kapag napapadaan sya sa pwesto ko, I really exist!). Kaso minsan, high tempered si Ma'am e. Nakakatakot! Hehe. Mainit ang ulo, pressured.. Pero, tumatawa pa rin naman sa kabila ng lahat. She was the one who originated my name, when she presented me to them, "SOFY". As she have said, she is Ma-L, super ma-L pa daw! XD Makulit din pala si Ma'am!


WEENA TARROSA (Reviewer)
* Ma'am Weena.. si Ma'am naman, akala ko dati new employee. Hehe! Nakasabay ko sya one time sa lunch area sa 2nd floor. Then, we had a talk. She's pretty. Kamukha nya Tita ko! Si Tita Anna :) Makulit din naman, kwela, patawa at kung minsan, inaasar din ako sa mga bagay bagay.


MEGAN MARIE KYLE MASANGKAY (Senior Teller/ST)
* Ate Megs.. certified loka-loka! (peace Ate Megs. Haha!) Ahmmm. Akala ko dati, snob sya. Kasi dadaan lang sya sayo, without any utter word out all. Pero hindi pala sya ganun. But she is a very happy person! :) Nakakahawa ang kasiyahang taglay nya. And I must say na maganda sya. In total package, maganda sya. Not just the face, also her inner beauty. Hindi sya mahirap pakisamahan. Tawa to the fullest! At masasabi kong nakakaasaran ko narin. I mean, pareha kami ng sense of humor. We share the same jokes. She shares with me her lovelife! And it's an honor to be trusted, right? Siguro dahil dun kaya kami nagkasundo, we clicked! Dahil naa-appreciate ko kung anong klaseng tao sya. She's simple yet stunning! I like her the way she is. Though alam kong medyo malungkot type din sya when she's not in the work. Pero, in all angle, she is one of a kind. Two thumbs up! :)


CHERRYL ALUNAN (New Accounts)
* Ma'am Che.. the most appreciative person in the branch! Lagi nya kasing naa-appreciate yung suot ko, yung mga nakikita nya saken. Feeling ko tuloy, ang ganda ganda ko. Charr! XD (Asa pa eno? Haha!) Naalala ko noong sinabi nya na.. "Ang sosyal mo talaga Sofy!" toinkz. e naka-dress kasi ako nun, Friday is Dress Day! I was wearing a brown-above-the-knee-dress-with-bolero. At, naka-black short din pala ako nun. Just in case na humangin diba? :) Ayon. Si Ma'am Che yung tipo ng tao na kapag biniro mo, bibiruin ka din. Kaya I think vibes kame e. Feeler? Hehe. Pero, I can say na si Ma'am Che parang Tita ko! si Tita Emily. Devoted sa trabaho. With matching eyeglass pa. She's smart pati.


ANGELA MALABANAN (New Accounts)
* Ma'am Anj.. chubby pero maganda! Tisay. Nali-link kay Sir Rolly :D Sya yung pinaka-relax na employee sa branch. Mahinhin. Haha! Hindi marahas sa bawat bagay. Napaka-sooth magsalita. Hehe. Pero, wag ka, nasa loob ang kulo ni Ma'am. Makulit din pala minsan, di nga lang sya ganun kaingay tulad ng iba na sadyang madaldal. Haha! XD I admire her skin, and putiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Inggets ako to death :)) Si Ma'am Anj yung tipo ng tao na hindi mo ini-expect na ganun pala sya. Naalala ko when she asked me one time, "Kumaen kna Sofy?" Though lahat naman sila concern sken if kumaen na ba ako or what. Pero, iba yung impact saken nung si Ma'am Anj na. Hehe. Siguro kasi hindi ko lang expect kung manggagaling kay Ma'am yung concern. Hehe.


ABEGAIL MIRABUENO (Bank Teller)
* Ate Abby.. akala ko dati half-japanese sya. Though hindi ko pa sya nako-confront about it. Pero, she is cute.. pretty :) Maputi, slim at.. may napakagandang shape ng balangkang. Seeeeeeeeexy! Kaso.. hmm. Masungit! (peace Ate Abbs! Haha!) Nambabara pati. Snob minsan, ganun. Pero siguro moody lang din sya kaya ganun. Diba? Anyways.. the good thing about her is that, kapag nakakulitan mo na sya, nakatawanan, she's mabait. Picture-caholic din. Hahaha! Like me. XD


RONELL LAUD (Bank Teller)
* Kuya Ron.. gwapo! Hahaha! Matipuno. Kaso minsan, I find him.. judeng :) Nitreat ako nyan sa 7-Eleven. Ice cream! Hahaha! At dapat nga last Saturday, kakaen daw dapat kami sa McDo. Kaso, I had an appointment. Sayang :( Gusto kong isipin na date yun, kaso, may gf kaya sya. Haha! Saka, asa pa. Hahaha! Para na akong kapatid nun, at kuya ko na rin sya. Hmm.. ano ba masasabi ko kay Kuya Ron? Malinis sa katawan. Though bago pa nga lang daw sya sa bangko. Nakaka-kwentuhan ko na rin sya minsan. Makulit din! Lalo na kapag tumawa, malupeeeeeeeet! :D Lalaking lalaki talaga. Buong buo ang boses.


* Ate Cindy & Kuya Melo (Bank Teller Trainees)
..mas nauna nga lang ako ng unte sa kanila. Akala ko nung una, mga ojt din. Yun pala, trainee mismo sa bangko. Hehe. Nung una, pahapyaw lang na pansinan. Pero nung tumagal, nagkasundo ng mga ugali. Nakakabiruan ko na rin sila :) Tawa din ng tawa lagi. XD Minsan pa nga tinawag ako ni Ate Cindy as Mare. Isn't it a good start? :) Tas si Kuya Melo naman patawa lagi yan.. Lalo na kapag lunch time na nya. Haha!


* Ate Hazel, Kuya Ian, Ma'am Charie, Kuya Jimson, Kuya Jester & the rest of the 2nd floor employees.
.. Si Ate Hazel, maganda. I like her hair, face, body and everything about her. Ang cute ng anak nya. One time kasi dinala nya yung anak nya, ang gwapooooo! :))
.. Si Kuya Ian, gwapooo! Cute. Hehe. Appreciative din. I saw her girlfriend one time, maganda. Sabi ko pa nga, mahinhin e. Yun pala, hindi daw mahinhin yun sabi nya. Si Kuya Ian & Ate Hazel yung mga back-up ko lalo na kapag naloloka ako sa Xerox Machine. Hahahaha! Kinakaen ako e :( Buti na lang, lagi silang on-the-rescue.
.. Si Ma'am Cha, okay lang. Sakto lang yung pagkakakilala ko sa kanya. Hehe. But there's one thing na hindi ko malilimutan, was when she called me, Ganda :) Ganda? Oo, ganda nga!
.. Meron pa e, kaso di ko alam mga pangalan nila. Only by face. Pero, kung sino man sila, I treasure them a lot! Sila yung bumubuo sa buong experience ko sa ojt ko.


* Fatima & Irene (New OJTrainees)
.. ahm, what to say? Tahimik. Ika nga ni Ma'am Hannah, neneng nene at inday na inday. Sabi ko naman, baka sa umpisa lang yan, like me :D Pero, sabagay, ang tahimik nga nila. Partida dalawa sila.. Well, we'll see in the future.


* Kuya Rey (Messenger) & the Guards
..sila yung mga taong makulit at on-the-go lagi to make me smile :) They stop by kapag dumadaan sila sa cubicle ko. Appreciated!


As to my final words for this.
Kung pwde lang na wag matapos ang OJT hours ko, mas pipiliin kong wag umalis. Mamimiss ko sila :( Mamimiss ko yung surrounding ko with them :(

I WILL REALLY MISS YOU ALL GUYS :(



Love,
SOFY ~

LIVE A HAPPY LIFE

Oye. will this be a happy life na pwde kong ipagmalaki someday? I guess so.

What happens now, is that I live my life to the fullest! I do whatever I want..

I do whatever it is that makes me HAPPY :)

Though alam kong hindi dapat ganun.. ganito.

Kasi kailangan ko ring isipin yung mga mangyayari sa mga susunod na araw.

Lord, please be my guide :(