#Perfect10

sarah geronimo in motion, 2008

i remember, when i was still in gensan, this 'in motion' concert was the very first concert that i'd luckily attended. and take note, i don't have ticket pa that time. the concert poster was at our bulletin updates. and whoever knows me, knows how much i admire sarah geronimo.

so, there. i'm with my friends when we saw the poster, and they all said, "sofie oh! magcoconcert si sarah!" as much as i want the front seat, i can't afford the ticket, kahit gen ad. i think gen ad was P300? not sure, pero parang ganun. e ang baon ko lang nun everyday is P20, P10 for my back and forth, tapos P10 para sa 2 recess and 1 lunch. so i thought, san naman ako kukuha ng P300? my tita anna's the one who pays for my studying that time, and i stayed in them until i finished highschool, just to look and take care of my cousins in return. to cut the story short,i had no ticket. but God has really His own ways. a very close friend of mine (hi mary joyce saligumba! :) if you're reading this. iloveyouandmissyou!), who has a cousin/dj who works in abscbn gensan (who sponsored the concert, i think), then talked to her cousin na kung pwede papasukin kami sa lago gym (venue of the concert) kahit wala kaming ticket. hahahahahaha! i can still picture out ourselves, we're so desperate just to be on that concert! and i cried when we successfully watched the concert, sorry mababaw lang :")

sarah geronimo the next one, 2009

and finally. got to afford the ticket! i saved my baon, and as far asi can remember, i have saved P3,000 that time! i remember, not spending my P100 baon (yes, P100. level up! college na daw e. hahaha!), and when my mama knew how did I save P3,000, she was mad but still understood me. :) so, i decided to buy ticket and realized that i don't have anyone to accompany me.so i've asked my cousin, chacha, to come with me, and said that i'll pay all the expenses (a round of applause for myself here, haha!), then she agreed. i bought worth P300 gen ad tickets. so we'll have budget for the food and fare. this was the concert that i was really prepared, hahaha! go, laugh at me! :)) prepared because i still remember i had my hair ironed, my doormates did my hair and makeup (oo, ganyan ka-oa). epic fail pa, kasi i borrowed a camera from one of my roommates, then when were at the concert na, it didn't zoom. imagine naman kung gaano kalayo yung gen ad sa stage! hahaha! so the pics were like ants. but it didn't make the night less fun. :)

eto na nga.

sarah geronimo perfect 10, 2013

i took a vacation leave for this one. sabi diba? :) we left the house around 5pm, and i guess, sakto lang naman for a 3hrs battle on the road. i was wearing a black with sparkling glitters in it, a white short, and a 3inches wegde (sakit sa paa) that night. simple lang, para naman makagalaw ako when i need to. nagpahatid ako kayt tito, with my aunt, cousin and kapatid, taray diba? kala mo naman lahat kami manonood :)) green gate, door 7, row 15 seat 18. wow, ang lapit ko!!!! :) pero next time, gusto ko yung malapit na malapit! hahaha! like row 1! :))) nothing's impossible. :) the concert was supposedly 8pm, and i arrived like 7:50 i think. kill that c5 road, friday traffic madness in all roads! when i arrived at the araneta, sobrang saya ko lang! :) i went alone. i can't afford everyone to come with me, sorry haha.

it started 9:15pm ata? oo, ang tagal bago nagsimula! pero hindi naman ako nainip. ewan, hindi lang siguro ako yung tipo ng tao na mabilis mainip. anyway, hindi pa ako kumakain ng kahit ano that time, at parang bet ko bumili ng food that time, kaso baka biglang magsimula, so umupo na lang ako at nag-antay. at eto pa, sobrang naiihi na ako, tapos nung nagdecide akong magcr, bigla ba namang naglights off! bigla tuloy akong bumalik kasi ayoko namang mamiss yung umpisa. but failed, an announcer just said, "Perfect 10 will start in a bit". that kuya! di man man lang sinabi kung ilang minuto! nevertheless, the crowd was patiently waiting.

in all very fairness sa popsters, they're all wearing this shirt in pink, painted with sarah g's face in front, and printed something at the back of the shirt. and i was like, taray! :) at hindi pa sila nagpakabog, while waiting for the concert to start, may choreo pa! one group from the front seats, one group from the upper box, and another group from the lower box, sabay sabay na sumisigaw ng "we love you, sarahhh!" natutuwa ako sa kanila. though medyo annoying. dedmaness na.

i've had like 3 videos of the concert, hindi nakisama ang phone ko, it went dead agad. but good thing na rin. i didn't plan naman na kuhanan lahat! what's the purpose of me watching it live right? edi sana nagYT na lang ako kung magvivideo lang ako.

i have to say this, hindi dahil fan nya ako. pero grabe, mas magaling na talaga syang performer ngayon.i witnessed it with my complete senses! tulala lang ako the whole time watching her perform. yung boses nya, sobrang simpleng pakinggan pero sobrang hirap nung mga kinakanta nya, but she made it like it's the super madaling kanta! wow. amazed. napadalawang standing ovation ata ako! at naiyak ako sa ilang parts. call it whatever you want.

as i said, it was literally her concert. she owned it. she nailed it. she is the concert. she is THE perfect 10!

it has been a #perfect10 ♥

EPM Year End Party

so, what happened?

to rate from 1 to 10, and 10 being the wala-ng-mas-gaganda-pa-sa-year-end-na-to, i would say, it's 7. hindi bagsak pero mas lalo namang hindi pasado. hahaha! napakasama. just maybe telling the truth.

7 kasi:

- hindi naman ganun kaingay, may time na no music, so parang dead yung party

- hinanap ko yung disco ball, kasi meron nun last year. so flashlight flashlight na lang haha

- throwback thursday ang peg ng music nung nagsasayawan na. oh ow.

but on a positive note naman, masaya yung party! :) okay na saken na puro tawanan lang sa team.

saturday morning.

on call ako. saya lang diba? haha. pero nevertheless, wala namang request, so parang hindi rin naman ako nahassle, though nag antay ako ng request (see? haha!). slept at around 9 or 10 am. but still, no fix plan pa for the party at night. my dress and all, bahala na kung anong maging kalabasan.

woke up at 4pm. muntik na akong tamarin umalis kasi gloomy yung weather, parang gusto ko na lang itulog at ipahinga. hahaha. almost 5pm na nung nakapagdecide ako na makikipagmeet na lang ako kina kaka, para sabay sabay na papunta sa venue.

6:30pm na ata nung nakarating ako sa kanila, samantalang 6 ang usapan. #thisismebeinglateagain :) rey arrived right before we finish dolling up ourselves. (ansabi ng dolling? hahahahaha!) pagbigyan.

around past 7pm na ata kami nakarating sa one cafe, tapos nakasalubong na namin yung iba sa team.

the party.

same place, same floor, (almost) same faces. when we arrived inside, we were given eyeglasses, (wow! charott!). same location of table, as always, beside the left side of the stage, away from the food area (yes, i love their carbonara).

started with the doxology. kaso nasan yung singer? hindi ko nakita. or malabo lang talaga mata ko. gusto ko pa naman i-feel yung kanta, kaso di ko sya nasight, so pinakinggan ko na lang. okay naman, di ko nga lang alam yung kinakanta nya. but it was okay. at least, by that time, the pressure and the nervousness was not on me.

hindi ko na saktong sure yung sequence nung party.

rated pg games.

cards. hahahahahahahahahaha! at isa pang hahahahahaha! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! ganyan ka-oa yung tawa ko nung card games na. kevin and mark did a great job! hahaha! parang may something. :)) joke lang haha. buti na lang hindi ako kasali dun at naku, susuntukin ko agad yung makakadampian ko ng labi hahahahaha. kaya buti na lang!

banana. "sofia nivera" napakunot ako ng kilay! "HA?" "bat ako kasali???!" "anak ngggggg!!!!" at hindi na ako nakatanggi, dahil masama na naman ang tingin ni ms dianne (hahaha!) pero buti na lang si mark from cvdm yung kapartner ko, at least, kilala ko na sya. the game started. kala ko panalo na kami, pero hindi pala. to mark: sana kasi nilakihan mo yung subo! hahaha! bagal dumigest! charott! hahaha! anyway, we're second, keri na.

face of the night.

i NEVER thought. and i didn't aim for anything that night! if it's the boots, wala na kasi akong choice but to wear it kasi wala naman akong heels, puro wedge na. so, i thought of wearing it kahit sobrang nakakailang kasi hindi naman ako sanay na bumu-boots. and if it's the dress, yun yung sinuot ko nung graduation day ko, gustuhin ko mang bumili ng new outfit for that party, di na sya pasok sa banga. hahaha!

but, thank you to my GDW who was there to cheer out loud! i can't thank enough. mahal kayo ng sash at ng koronang natanggap ko :)

dance. dance. dance..

tulak dito. tulak doon. hahaha! take it off dito, take it off doon. :D

i never realized that, that night, pwedeng magbago ang lahat. #this

at ayon, nawala kami sa katinuan. buti na lang hindi nila kami pinabayaan <3

thank you, thank you, thank yoooouu! <3 hindi ko na kayo iisa-isahin dahil alam nyo naman kung sino sino kayo :)

lesson learned: last na yon ;)

and to next year end party? we'll see. :)

*will update with pics soon*

KYTHE: I am HOPE

when was the last time you did something for the first time?

YES! finally! got to check this off of my bucket list - foundation/org/anything that has something to do with the kids.❤

noon pa man, meron na talagang special place ang mga bata sa puso ko. hindi ko alam kung bakit. siguro kasi i was once a kid. alam ko yung feeling ng pagiging mababaw ang kaligayahan (until now), that kid feeling of how a (yellowgreen, my fave) lollipop or (dynamite or kopiko) candy can make me the happiest person in the world, that undefined feeling of having a one peso, those jollibee spaghetti days (na nakakain ko lang before kapag nasa honor roll ako. serves as a gift from mama), and how a new floral (and sometimes, glittered) dress can light up my christmas. very simple, but at that time, everything was just hard to get.

JAMES

meet James. very smart. he doesn't talk that much, but when he do, you know it's who he is. participates and always on the go in any game. right before the hanapan time, medyo nakakaramdam na ako ng kaba. kaba kasi hindi ko alam kung magiging worth it ba ako as a volunteer, magiging mabuti ba akong ate for a day, magiging close ba kami, at sobrang dami pang tumatakbo sa isip ko that time. pero, naisip ko, "hindi ako pumunta dito para makaramdam ng mga kung ano-anong pangamba."

the program just started. i'm blue, number 9. alam mo yung touching part? i was just standing, tapos may biglang lumapit saken na bata, "ate!", he smiled and hugged my legs so tight. gusto kong maiyak sa tuwa nun! pero hindi pwede, baka isipin nya hindi ako masaya na makita sya. grabe lang yung moment na yon, feeling ko, nakatayo pa lang ako, alam na nyang ako yung ate nya. awwww :(

and then we looked for our kythe partner.

JAMES and CHRISTINE
(so sad that i haven't got the chance to have a pic with these two)
*Christine, sorry that i have to grab or should i say steal, this pic from your IG*

meet Christine. young, pretty and very down to earth. 2nd year college. it's her one year in kythe. she's one of those rich atenista girls that i just look up to. hindi ko sya nakitaan ng arte and all. i remember, as we were touring James around the booths, she has this all wide-smile-face, aside from the fact na maganda sya, she's very approachable. ang swerte nya, ng pamilya nya, at ng mga taong nasa paligid nya. i just knew it by seeing her, with all her simplicity.

nung nakumpleto na kami, Christine, James and I, had to sit, relax and enjoy the program. Christine got the food and gave it to James. (infairness talaga sa org na to, ang bobongga ng mga sponsors. hindi basta basta. big names kung big names!) anyway, while James was eating, i had to make get-to-know-questions on him. only to found out that he's been in the honor roll. wow! he's eating burger stake with rice from jollibee. and i saw him having a hard time cutting the burger stake. at first, hinayaan ko lang, baka afterwards, mahiwa nya rin. hanggang sa nagdecide ako na ako na lang maghihiwa for him para madali nyang makain. yun yung mga pagkakataon na gusto ko lang sya makitang busog. it was priceless.

bring me. medyo crowded yung place, though malaki naman yung venue. UP ba naman! :) crowded in a sense na, lahat malapit sa stage, but it's okay. Christine and I were cheering James to do his best! "Go, James!" at nung tumakbo si James, para kaming mga yaya ni Christine na ayaw pakawalan yung alaga namin. hahaha, nakakatawa. takbo dito, takbo doon. at first, hindi nanalo si James. medyo nalungkot sya, pero sabi namin ni Christine, "it's okay, bawi tayo!" and when the next bring me has been announced, aba naman talaga si James, takbo kung takbo sa harap! pero ang nakakaloka, bring me anything red daw, pero wala namang dala si James na kahit ano! hahahaha! so tumakbo lang talaga sya para mauna. katuwang bata. :) pero nanalo na sya that time, he took his mother's red umbrella. we were so happy seeing him got his prize.

the booths. James was as excited as a kid. after nya kumain, and after the games, nagbooths na agad kami. (ginastusan talaga! for me the most extravagant booths i've ever seen!) clay making, face painting, ball shooting, cupcake making, experiments, freebies and a lot more! it's just that, while we were touring James to booths, there's these Disney Princesses that i had to miss! :( but nevertheless, i know i just did the toughest decision that day, to spent time with my kid. i'll just cry my heart out if i witnessed all the heartbreaking scenes.

their guests. as i've said, kythe na talaga! sila na talaga ang bongga sa lahat ng bongga! what can i say, it's ateneo-fied. they had ella cruz (aryana), andrea brilliantes (annaliza), igi boy (former goin' bulilit), i haven't saw the one who sang before disney princesses, the three of us were not in the stage, we're already booth-ing. and they had ryzza!!!! yes, they had the cha-cha-cha bulilit! and from then, i just knew, it was really a day for the kids.

to all the ateneo students who were there and made everthing they can to make that day special for the kids, THANK YOU! thank you, for showing your love for the kids and for making us a part of it. we enjoyed it! though from work, we headed straight to your event, and we just had an amazing day we'll never forget, thank you very much! continue inspiring others with your good and big hearts. may God bless you and guide you always to never get tired of making kids happy, happy in life.

and to you, reader, pay it forward. sometimes, it's not the money that makes us happy, but it's our helpful hearts that knows how to reach out and give back. i hope you guys can also make a difference. you'll see how they'll change your life. be inspired to help! they need you, they need us. we need each other. sabi ko nga, hangga't kaya ko, tutulong ako. sana ikaw rin! :)

also, to my co-ate's and co-kuya's that day, (L-R) rey, kevin, miguel and karen, we did a great job! :)

Lord, Kayo na po ang bahala sa mga bata. i believe, You move mountains, as well as heal those who need it most. thank you for using the kids as an eye opener to us. thank you also for letting us help them in any way we can. continue to bless everyone's hearts, Lord.

oh wait, here's how to be a kythe volunteer :)

good morning!

i need balance

oh, wait. i wonder who reads my blog. i have 1k+ views, wow. who are you people? :)

idky. anyways, THANK YOU po. kayo naaaaa!

i'm at my point in my life where i know living is not just working or earning money. i realized, there are really more to life than what you have right now. yes, it will take time, but discoveries will not knock on your door and say, "hey, want new discoveries?", that's beyond day dreaming. i mean, work on it! dream on it! live on it! i told myself that i will not just die living my life working. no way. i want to see this world, enjoy it while i have it. i only live once, why would i live it like a passing by bus?

seven days a week. twenty-four hours a day. i don't know if we have a lot of time, or just a small time left. no one knows, and i think no one likes to know.

this balance thing, i wanna do it but sometimes, not alone. :") i need someone to share new discoveries with, or okay, people (optional, haha!). let's all be active as possible. let's not just sit and sleep! guilty me. hahaha! i like to try a lot of things! zumba, pilates, trx, biking (yung talagang matagalang biking), pole dancing (hahaha!), swimming, dance class (feeler?), any activities to squeeze in will do.

but for now, let's just let things fall into their places.

plans before this year ends, fingers crossed for them to happen. God, please.

on the other hand, i'm included to perform for the year end. nice. very nice marshalls. clap clap. please die.

idk yet what to do. magdrama na lang kaya ako? hahaha parang tangek lang. for a change. o di kaya, dance. charott! kala mo naman may talent sa ganun! hahaha! doble kara? kaso nakakapagod yung haharap sa kaliwa tapos sa kanan! hahaha yung mga buwis buhay talent kaya? kakanta ako habang lumilipad! hahahaha pitch perfect version kaya? taraaaay! leveling! hahaha.

but seriously, i'm thinking of having someone to play while i sing. WOOOOOOOW? k. :)))))))

tulog na naten to. hahaha! good night!

lots of love. xoxo

normal, not normal

these past few days, or should i say, these past few months (it's been a long time! haha!), there are some things that i do, that i don't usually do! yeah, change of whatever you call it -- change, which is not normal. i think, i'm not so sure. :)

to avoid gossips and wrong interpretation for this post, some codes are to coat some word/s. and let's keep his name as "sun".

normal: not visiting my sns for almost a year now.

not normal: visit my sns just to sneak this sun! (uh-huh)

normal: when in lack, i don't type.

not normal: lack or not, i type! (tss..)

normal: i don't mind when sun is raining.

not normal: i'm very conscious when sun is raining! (crazy me.)

normal: when sun cries.

not normal: when sun cries, and it's like a med to my disease! (yeah, oa.)

normal: sun offers a ribbon.

not normal: i assume it means something. (assuming it is.)

well, yan lang naman yung iba. :) idk, but i wish and pray that he's the one.

to you, who's reading this, (please) just be happy for me. :) i know, it's none of your business, or the hell you care, but would you be happy if there's someone out there who's not happy for you? don't be a black sheep, cause i believe, you're not.

life is just short, don't live ruining other's life.

God bless our hearts! :)

Huuuugs!

#bucketlist

it's August! which means! :)

okay, for this month, I came to an idea of posting my bucket list, these are the "as in?" kind of bucket list.

as folks say, DREAM BIG. which is true. i think, i have a lot (really) of dreams in my life. but, this post may not end if i'll share it all to you. so, i will share 10 of the most "as in?" and i think, my "crazy ideas".

*this list doesn't mean it's on top my list, i still yet to discover myself day by day. maybe, i'll update this whenever possible.*

10. magperform ng gusto kong songs o magconcert sa araneta coliseum

hahahahaha. i know, sounds so ambitious! pero YES! gusto kong magperform. kantahin yung mga kantang gusto ko. yung tungkol sa concert sa araneta coliseum, sige mag-aantay ako kung kelan itatakda ng panahon. hahaha, lakas! but, who knows? :p

9. mawala na ang allergy ko sa chicken

oh please, God. sana dumating yung time na pwede ko ng araw arawin ang manok. pero, pasaway lang talaga ako, kasi kahit bawal, kahit nagtitiis ako sa allergy, kumakaen pa rin ako ng manok pag gusto ko. haaaaay.. kung hindi lang sana sa mukha ang epekto, i would eat chicken without thinking twice. 

8. magkaroon ng vital statistics na 32-24-36 HAHAHA

nung pinanganak ako, hindi naman ako tabachoy, pero hindi rin naman ako payat, tama lang. pero bakit as i grow, mas nagiging conscious na ako sa katawan ko? i mean, hindi naman (daw) ako ganun kataba, (at wag naman sanang mangyai yon, naku po), mas gusto ko talaga yung slim. nakakainggit lang. wala na nga ako masyadong height, wala pa akong magandang figure. nagreklamo talaga eno? pero, malakas naman ang paniniwala kong someday, i will be. :)

7. matuto ng iba't ibang language

kinalakhan ko na ang tagalog. natuto naman akong magbisaya sa una kong tahanan, ang gensan. nung nag-aaral ako, natuto na rin naman ako ng mga basic sa english. haha, charing! pero syempre, hindi naman lahat marunong umintindi ng english, kahit pa universal language sya in the world. siguro my top three would love to learn languages are mandarin, french and chinese. feeling multi-linguistic lang. ;) 

6. magkaroon ng foundation o maging volunteer sa mga organizations for children

ever since pa naman talaga, malambot na ang puso ko sa mga bata. nagsimula siguro yun nung naging catechist (teacher) ako sa flores de mayo every month of may, way back when i was still 8 or 10, i think. i taught children about God, how to pray the holy rosary, read the bible, played games with them after class, sang and danced worship songs, shared the foods that were sponsored by the purok chairman, who was by that time, my tito, then later on, a friend of my tito. it was funnn! it was like playing but being serious at the same time, cause you're dealing with children, dealing with their young minds. i told myself, that i'll extend my help whenever i can.

5. makapaglaro sa snow

dati, sabi ko, magkaroon lang kami ng ref, sobrang magiging masaya na ako. gusto ko ng malamig! mabubuhay ako sa malamig! kaya kapag nakakakita ako ng snow, naiimagine ko yung sarili na naglalaro sa snow! i know it would be one of the happiest, child-like-kind-of day of my life! gusto kong gumawa ng snowman! makipagbatuhan ng snow! gumulong gulong sa snow! tumingala sa langit at damhin ang pagbuhos ng snow! aaaaaaah.. one day, i know. and i believe. things will turn out that way. :)

4. ma-hug, at makausap si Sarah Geronimo

okay, okay.. ever since the world begun (not literally), e popster at heart naman na talaga ako. no indenial. i've seen her. i've hold her hand (hand lang kasi handshake lang yun e, haha!). i've smelled her. i saw her like 12 inches away from my face! aaaaah! yes, i know, mababaw. yes, i'm idolizing her, but NOT worshiping her, okay? just to be clear. nothing compares to Him, NOTHING. well, going back, i want to hug her, so tight! a hug like i'm her friend. and talk to her like we've known each other since the day we were born.

3. maging independent

um, independent in the sense that i want to decide on my own. which i actually do all the time, haha! but i mean, independent that i can do all things, and that i know they'll just there to guide me and remind me that, they are always there. but i love my parents. i really, really do. i respect their decisions for me. i'm not against it. but you know, i also want to learn how would it feels being independent. *ma, if you're reading this, it's not what you think, hindi ako bibili ng sarili kong bahay. haha!* this one's quite impossible for now, but time will tell.

2. mameet ang aking love of my life

kung nasan ka man ngayon, dumating kana.♥ God, papuntahin nyo na po.♥ i remember before, a guy friend told me, "ang swerte ng magiging first boyfriend mo." and from then, i started wondering, "bakit? paano?" hindi ko pa rin naman alam hanggang ngayon, siguro nga. sweetness is one of my weaknesses. siguro nga pag may nagbigay saken ng bulaklak, baka buhay kong ipagpapasalamat yun kay God. chocolates na kahit Hany lang, e sobrang matutuwa na ako! love letters!!!!! hello, benta pa rin naman saken yung handwritten letters! kahit para pang kinahig ng manok yung penmanship nya, basta't from the heart, sobrang maiinlove na ako. yung talagang mag e-effort, mag i-initiate at sincere, kahit yun lang, wala na akong hahanapin pang iba. when i give you my heart, i give it all.

1. makapagtravel around the world

travel!!!!!! who would not love to travel? who would not enjoy the views this world could offer? and who would not appreciate that this world is worth traveling? ooops, definitely, not me! i wish that someday i'll have my travel buddy, or if ever, he could be my partner, my lover (naks!). to see the world is one of the amazing thing ever! here in philippines, i want to go to boracay (i've never been there!), baguio (for their cold weather), el nido palawan (there's this handsome guy who wants this also. Hi, lampa in basketball, he said. hehe!), i think that's all for now. and for outside the country, i'd love to be in new york! times square and everything! then, to france, the most romantic place in the world. and to make it top three, it's europe! i want to know their culture, charot! but, seriously, anywhere in the world would do. travel to see the world!

ikaw, anong nasa bucket list mo? :)

-S

body language

i wish i could read someone's mind. but, no, i remember that it would be better not to know all things. sometimes, i'm just afraid of getting hurt. (ouch!) save the worth-the-pain for someone who's really worth it.

as much as i wanted to jinx something, i'd rather keep it myself this time. :)

basta, i'm happy at this very moment of my life. i think, lagi naman akong masaya (hahahaha!), pero yung saya ko ngayon, medyo deep. taray, dumi-deep.

speaking of body language, would it mean something if someone put his/her head on your shoulder? nothing. i was just curios. best if it means something, but you know, we can't always have to put meanings just because we want it that way, more like it'd be best that way. :)

things are kinda going my way at some point. but i'm not sure til when it will be like that. so for now, i'll just go with the flow. :)

you, you're so good at making me curios, huh.

Confessions..

hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan.. pero bahala na. 

tao lang, nagkakagusto.

sabi ko, give up na ako sa'yo e. pero ewan ko ba. there's something in you. i just can't give up! maraming complications. andaming tumatakbo sa isip ko.. na minsan gusto ko na lang umiyak, bigla na lang akong nalulungkot. bigla ko na lang naaalala lahat. :(

sana pala hindi na lang naimbento ang magkagusto, ang maka-appreciate ng ibang tao.

minsan, gusto kong isipin na gusto mo rin ako, na naiisip mo rin ako, na ngumingiti ka kapag naririnig mo ang pangalan ko, na interesado ka rin saken. pero minsan, mas nangingibaw yung paniniwala ko na baka hindi ka naman ganon saken. nahihirapan akong intindihin ka.. mabaet ka, mabaet ka sa lahat. pwede kong isipin na mabaet ka lang talaga. na yung mga ginagawa mo saken, ay ginagawa mo rin naman sa iba. ayokong mag-expect. pero kahit di ko gustong gawin, nagagawa at ginagawa ko pa rin.

sabi ko, di kita papansinin, na kakalimutan ko na lang tong feelings ko para sa'yo. pero yun pala yung mas mahirap! :( yun pala yung mas masakit. grabe ka, wala kang kamalay malay na may nagkakaganito sayo. o baka naman alam mo? sabihin mo naman saken. iparamdam mo naman saken. handa ko namang tanggapin lahat ng sasabihin mo, kahit pa masasaktan ako, tatanggapin ko. ayoko lang umasa sa wala. ayoko ko lang masayang ang lahat. ngayon na lang ulet ako naging ganito ka-concern. wag naman sana 'kaibigan lang' ang lahat ng to. 

at sana kung nababasa mo to, sana sabihin mo saken kung may nararamdaman ka rin. hindi yung manghuhula na lang ako. kahit papano, nahihirapan rin naman akong intindihin yung mga ginagawa mo. kahit na alam kong di naman talaga para saken. gustong gusto kong ipagsigawan na gusto kita, na hindi ko kayang makita kang may kasamang iba, na may ibang nagpapatawa sayo, na may ibang nag-aalala sayo, na tinutukso ka sa iba, na nakikita mo lang ako bilang kaibigan... bakit ganon? :(

pero kung wala naman talagang 'feelings' involved, wag mo na lang sanang iparamdam o ipakita na parang meron, kung wala naman talaga.

wala akong idea kung bakit naging ganito kabilis lahat ng pangyayari. basta ang alam ko, masaya ako sa nararamdaman ko para sayo. kung ano't ano man ang mangyari in the end, at least wala akong pagsisisihan. natutuwa akong naipaparamdam sa ibang tao, lalo na sayo, yung totoo kung nararamdaman.

haaaayy.. i know i'll get through this one day. but for now, allow me to confess my emotions for someone very special to me.

let's expect the worst, and hope for the best. oh, Lord. just this one... ♥

leaving you with this very sweet song (na nadiscover ko lang very lately),

Michael Bublé - Close Your Eyes ♥

all the love,

SOFIE

i will never please everyone

do good, they will still say something about you. do nothing, they will still say something.

what a world. people are people.

lately, i just realized that you can't just be good to those who are good to you, cause if you do, then you're being fair. (I got this thought during holy week days, while watching Passion of the Christ). God is soooo (not to mention) good, to everyone, even those who do, and say bad to Him. But He doesn't mind.

well, that's why i envy my mother's attitude. she's so kind!!!! very!!! the kind of kindness that you'd hate! or should i say, we, the family hates. yes, she. is. kind. but, people abused her kindness. we always have a say every time she starts letting some people ask a favor on her. she even sometimes prolonged this kind of attitude to the extent that it became endless. see? i can never be like that, i wish i can, but it's so hard on my part! sorry. limit's on.

there are days that I wish I have a God-like attitude. i always pray to be like Him, very humble, down to earth, everyone's hand/shoulder, very holy, name it, He is indeed the chosen One.

i'm not a good person, but i believe i am. i have my limits. i have my pride, my ego. i have a very long patience. i can be your friend, i'll do anything to be the best kind of friend you'll ever have. but i can also be on that bad side, the enemy, your worse kind of enemy. all my life, i never wanted to have that one. i can hate, but not to the point that i make fight.

here's to those who wasted/wastes/will waste their time on me: what have i done to you? did i push you to your limit? did i blow you away? or, you just don't like my existence? okay, i'm sorry. you can tell me if there's something i can do. just don't be rude. please. i can be nice, not the plastic version. just say. just let me know. don't splurge your time gossiping about me, i'm not a celebrity nor a famous individual. if you were in my shoes, i know you'd want the same way. aright? :)

love & kisses!

and, PS..

i pray to God that you, the man in that very formal email, the man who talks to me in a different line, and to the man who sat by my side and wrote down on a sheet of paper his favorite quote, to please ask. me. out.

moving out

hello, hello, june!

wow, that was fast. it's been 6 months ago! half way through!

anyway, im just having a quick break to my laundry. feeling tired, feeling lazy to do it, but i have to. whatever..

okay, moving on.

you can say that im kinda, sorta (napakadaming alam! haha!) excited of this so-called "moving out".

FINALLY!

hmmmm not expecting anything. i just want to try some new things! explore and just have funnn!! really. :) though it may be so sad to leave. :( just the thought of not seeing them everyday, hurts. the thought of not having a conversation with them over the breakfast, lunch, merienda, and dinner, hurtssss! i'll miss them everyday. sabi ko nga, "hindi ko makikita ang paglaki ng mga tuta namen :((((" grabe. dinaig ko pa sa kadramahan yung mga taong nag a-abroad! napaka ko naman. okay, sorry.

but i'll take this as a challenge. i'll try to be independent now. wow naman, lakaaas!

pero bahala na talaga. kinakabahan na natatakot na looking forward, aaaaah.. very mix emotions!! bahala na si God saken, at sa mga susunod na araw.. i'll just do the best that i can, for sure, He'll do the rest. :) amen.

that's all for now! x

say whuuut?

nakakainis hahahahaha

bakit ba napaka-assuming ko? eeeer!! masyadong expecting. masyadong feeling-mo-naman. masyadong akala-ko. hay naku, mamatay ka na nga, este yung attitude na ganito pala hahahaha

as what old folks say, yung tao nga daw na makakapagpasaya sayo, ironically, siya din daw yung taong makakapagpaiyak sayo. like, WHAAAAT? aray.

hep hep! wait. kung di naman masyadong importanteness sayo ang salitang "feelings" e wag mo na kayang basahin to. please? :)

so, andun na tayo e, alam mong masasaktan ka (lang), pero go ka pa rin. girls, it's really hard no? most esp if the guy's so good to be true. bakit ganon? wala bang stopper na naimbento para sa feelings? CHOS!

sorry ha. ang babaw lang ng post na to. siguro naman at some point in your life e nakaranas ka na ring mag-assume, at ang over over pa dyan, minsan nagcoconstruct ako ng mga sasabihin ko (oo, ako na) masaydo ko syang pinaghahandaan, leveling! ansabeee naman talaga diba?

siguro you're thinking who's this guy ba? hmm well... lucky for him na may gumaganito sa kanya. taray ng hair mo! :)

umm parang sunod sunod na post na yung about sa kanya ah, malala na to, dapat ng agapan hahahaha. pero sige, hangga't di pa ako natatauhan, magpapaka-dense muna ako. :) ansabe ng dense? hahaha basta ayon. :)

isang araw, babasahin ko na lang to at marerealize kong.. "yea, i HAD a crush on you/him."

kaya para sa mga may hidden feelings dyan, aba e, hindi naman pwedeng forever hidden yan, let go let go din may time hahahaha

and to this guy: wag mo sanang sayangin na may nakaka-appreciate sa'yo.

always,

to this girl --

You.

it's fridaaayy! :) ay, sabado na pala. i mean, yung shift. yon na yon.

at.. nasa office ako while typing this (hahaha!) syempre, magrereact ka kung officemate kita. malamang quite ka lang. :)

hmmm okay, so this post is for someone na wala lang (baliw lang ang peg haha), gusto ko lang syang gawan ng post.

no clue.

okay. so sabihin na naten na 'the-pwede-ka-guy' is just somewhere down the road. mga 50 miles to mars. :)

"the sweetness of a guy will hurt you, when you assume it's love where in fact it's NOT."

-- ay meganon? aray ng slight.

mahirap yung feeling na kailangan mong mamili between a friend and a guy, weird lang no? syempre never ko naman ipagpapalit ang kaibigan ko for someone na hindi naman ako sure if we have same feelings. diba?

thank you to this guy for letting me realize na friends matter MOST.

i hope that one day, mapadpad ka sa blog na to, at maisip mong para sa'yo to. nakksss sweet ko ng 10% dito ha, wag ka. :)

pero sana if wala namang kapupuntahang mabuti yung 'meron tayo' (assuming na naman ang lola mo haha), e sana we can be friends foreveeeer! :) #damikonanamanalam #anobayan

ayon lang. :)

PS.

if you feel na ikaw to, pm mo ko ha. or text, as if namang may communication. :) basta, let me know. hindi ako makakatulog ng isang linggo pag nalaman kong binasa mo to.

have a happy weekend!

love,

sofia <3

i miss you, steph ♥

for no apparent reason, bigla kong naisip hanapin sa youtube yung video namin ni stephanie during our moa escapade, way back in september 28 2008. but unfortunately, hindi ko na matandaan exactly yung username nya, i used key words, pero ganun pa rin, no results found.

stephanie is my high school (best) friend, kasama ko sya sa choir. i know her family, she knows my family. we're not the so-called bff, but we treat each other as sisters from different mothers.

we had shared a lot of good memories together! i remember those times when we're still hanging out at their white house, literally! :) dun kami naglalunch together, sharing laughter, songs, crushes (hahaha!) i miss youuuu!

and there was also a time when she asked my crush if he likes me, while i'm on steph's side, and to my luck, that guy said, YES! he has a crush on me! hahahaha imagine the kilig we had that time, though we're still inside the tricycle!

one of the best was when we (the chants - choir group that we're part of) joined a contest, we were hugging and hugging from the start til the end.

steph is one of the few people that i will always keep not just in my life, but here in my heart. i want to hug you now steph!!!! :(

you're at NC now, while i'm here in PH. hope we'll meet again, soon! you'll get here, or i'll go there for ya! xx

Stephanie Myrtle Guevarra

i really, really miss you, steph! :(

i wish you a very happy, happy married life! ♥

hugs and kisses,
sophy ♥

"those friends na hindi mo man laging nakikita, alam mong deep inside each other's hearts, you remain friends."

PEOPLE OF MY 2012

HELLOOOOOOOOO, 2013!!!!! CHEERS!! :)

there's no emerald green (lucky color for the year of water snake) for font colors, so at least a shade of green is i think kinda okay.

dear 2012, you and i were the best of buddies, i guess! hahaha. we had our happy and sad (cry a baby) moments, but that's life, as what folks say.

okay, i'm actually trying to pile up my 2012... and, it's really, really hard. harder than the word itself!

(opens a notepad, scratching. hahaha!)

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so, here's my TOP 5 PEOPLE OF THE YEAR :)

5. NO NAME

(no picture na rin, mahirap na. HAHA)

i labeled this person as no name, for i think this person deserved a private life. (lakas mo rin saken ha!) anyways, i wanna say thank you, for loving me and the people around me. yes, i did pray to God na sana ikaw na nga, but you know, things never go the way we want. baka we meant to be as friends? with a question mark, because i know it's not that easy to just set aside what i called "invested feelings". i'm always vocal naman to say that, i was not bitter, never. maybe, undenial but not bitter. i believe they're both have different impacts. so, ayon. i'm happy now for things life is offering me. i can't say i'm content, but i'm always looking forward for new things. :) AND! sorry, if nasaktan ka verbally or by parinig ng mga friends ko, at friends naten. i always believe in you, alam mo yan. no regrets! if we ever meet again, i will surely smile at you, and that's a promise. :)

4. DANICA MAGLALANG

just realized na wala tayong matinong picture! how come?! we're too busy bees? hahahaha!

and here's your solo, you pretty young lady. :)

this is so far, the nicest shot of us together. nicest huh? :p

sweet, soft spoken, everybody's crushie (ayeeeh!), super kind, smart, someone who you can talk with everything! as in everything under the sun! i miss you, nicatot! ♥ i miss our "boys talk", (hehe!) our future dreams and wants! aaaaaaaah! :(

she became a huge part of my 2012. huge as to the point of cruciality (new word! by me. haha! the ability of being crucial!), she was my partner in (damn) thesis B. [hello, belabels! if you're reading this, i wanna say thank you to you also. ♥] anyways, we gone thru a lot of hardships, discrimination, criticisms, failures and all. it was NOT easy! there comes a time pa nga na both of us were unsure na. we're both crying inside. we've got nothing but ourselves. but, you know what's nice about her? she was there, all the time (though sometimes, she's TOO LAZY to reply to my texts), but i felt that i was never alone the whole time.

hi, nicaaaa! yes, you must be surprise! :) i photo grabbed pa your pic, sorry. :p i just wanna say thank you, thank you! we've made it!! we're the best!!!! :) uhmm, sana mahanap mo na si "the one", you deserve someone better than "lip-guy-of-makati" HAHAHAHA but seriously, i love you! lam mo yan! we may not see each other's life right now, i know someday, we'll laugh at everything we've been thru before! :) i'm soooooo happy that you came across in my life. #HMMM? #SABEEEEH? :) ♥

3. TEAM GDW

(Year End Party-EFS Christmas Party-GDW Christmas Party)

thank you, GDW!♥♥♥ you guys added spice (and even more hot sauce to my 2012! HAHAHA), you have no idea how lucky, and thankful i am, having you and enjoying your companionship. (hala sige, maitawid lang ang companionship, hehe!) i will not mention each of you na, basta, THANK YOUUUU!!!!♥ words can't express how blessed i am at this point of my life, or should i say... career? :) peace men. that's why i really, really love my job!♥ wishing for a more team pictures in the future! more laughs hahahaha! i know this is just the beginning, there's so much of 2013  for each one of us! consider it solved. :)

2. DOGS (Boots, Max & Em-em)

i'll just update this post, soon. nasa hd ng pala. anyways, they're the joy of our family right now. the super makukulit at super, suuuuuuper tatakaw!

UPDATED as of 06.02.13
*as for Pipi, I actually made an entire post for her.

1. GOD and MY FAMILY

i could not ask for more. my family is everything.♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

this was taken during NYE. ♥♥♥♥♥

wow! i look taller with mama's pic! and, not so tall at all with marvin's side, not fair (haha!). also, thank you, daddy! we love you! we're so, very thankful having you around.♥♥♥

i'm still optimistic this 2013, that'll never change. my hopes and wishes? we'll see! :) what happens, happens. i love you to that olivia culpo! :)

i hope everyone's have their people of 2012 also. it doesn't matter if they're close to you, an idol, a mate or what, what matters is, at one point in your life, they've changed you for the better.

a first for 2013! goodnight! xo