normal, not normal

these past few days, or should i say, these past few months (it's been a long time! haha!), there are some things that i do, that i don't usually do! yeah, change of whatever you call it -- change, which is not normal. i think, i'm not so sure. :)

to avoid gossips and wrong interpretation for this post, some codes are to coat some word/s. and let's keep his name as "sun".

normal: not visiting my sns for almost a year now.

not normal: visit my sns just to sneak this sun! (uh-huh)

normal: when in lack, i don't type.

not normal: lack or not, i type! (tss..)

normal: i don't mind when sun is raining.

not normal: i'm very conscious when sun is raining! (crazy me.)

normal: when sun cries.

not normal: when sun cries, and it's like a med to my disease! (yeah, oa.)

normal: sun offers a ribbon.

not normal: i assume it means something. (assuming it is.)

well, yan lang naman yung iba. :) idk, but i wish and pray that he's the one.

to you, who's reading this, (please) just be happy for me. :) i know, it's none of your business, or the hell you care, but would you be happy if there's someone out there who's not happy for you? don't be a black sheep, cause i believe, you're not.

life is just short, don't live ruining other's life.

God bless our hearts! :)

Huuuugs!

#bucketlist

it's August! which means! :)

okay, for this month, I came to an idea of posting my bucket list, these are the "as in?" kind of bucket list.

as folks say, DREAM BIG. which is true. i think, i have a lot (really) of dreams in my life. but, this post may not end if i'll share it all to you. so, i will share 10 of the most "as in?" and i think, my "crazy ideas".

*this list doesn't mean it's on top my list, i still yet to discover myself day by day. maybe, i'll update this whenever possible.*

10. magperform ng gusto kong songs o magconcert sa araneta coliseum

hahahahaha. i know, sounds so ambitious! pero YES! gusto kong magperform. kantahin yung mga kantang gusto ko. yung tungkol sa concert sa araneta coliseum, sige mag-aantay ako kung kelan itatakda ng panahon. hahaha, lakas! but, who knows? :p

9. mawala na ang allergy ko sa chicken

oh please, God. sana dumating yung time na pwede ko ng araw arawin ang manok. pero, pasaway lang talaga ako, kasi kahit bawal, kahit nagtitiis ako sa allergy, kumakaen pa rin ako ng manok pag gusto ko. haaaaay.. kung hindi lang sana sa mukha ang epekto, i would eat chicken without thinking twice. 

8. magkaroon ng vital statistics na 32-24-36 HAHAHA

nung pinanganak ako, hindi naman ako tabachoy, pero hindi rin naman ako payat, tama lang. pero bakit as i grow, mas nagiging conscious na ako sa katawan ko? i mean, hindi naman (daw) ako ganun kataba, (at wag naman sanang mangyai yon, naku po), mas gusto ko talaga yung slim. nakakainggit lang. wala na nga ako masyadong height, wala pa akong magandang figure. nagreklamo talaga eno? pero, malakas naman ang paniniwala kong someday, i will be. :)

7. matuto ng iba't ibang language

kinalakhan ko na ang tagalog. natuto naman akong magbisaya sa una kong tahanan, ang gensan. nung nag-aaral ako, natuto na rin naman ako ng mga basic sa english. haha, charing! pero syempre, hindi naman lahat marunong umintindi ng english, kahit pa universal language sya in the world. siguro my top three would love to learn languages are mandarin, french and chinese. feeling multi-linguistic lang. ;) 

6. magkaroon ng foundation o maging volunteer sa mga organizations for children

ever since pa naman talaga, malambot na ang puso ko sa mga bata. nagsimula siguro yun nung naging catechist (teacher) ako sa flores de mayo every month of may, way back when i was still 8 or 10, i think. i taught children about God, how to pray the holy rosary, read the bible, played games with them after class, sang and danced worship songs, shared the foods that were sponsored by the purok chairman, who was by that time, my tito, then later on, a friend of my tito. it was funnn! it was like playing but being serious at the same time, cause you're dealing with children, dealing with their young minds. i told myself, that i'll extend my help whenever i can.

5. makapaglaro sa snow

dati, sabi ko, magkaroon lang kami ng ref, sobrang magiging masaya na ako. gusto ko ng malamig! mabubuhay ako sa malamig! kaya kapag nakakakita ako ng snow, naiimagine ko yung sarili na naglalaro sa snow! i know it would be one of the happiest, child-like-kind-of day of my life! gusto kong gumawa ng snowman! makipagbatuhan ng snow! gumulong gulong sa snow! tumingala sa langit at damhin ang pagbuhos ng snow! aaaaaaah.. one day, i know. and i believe. things will turn out that way. :)

4. ma-hug, at makausap si Sarah Geronimo

okay, okay.. ever since the world begun (not literally), e popster at heart naman na talaga ako. no indenial. i've seen her. i've hold her hand (hand lang kasi handshake lang yun e, haha!). i've smelled her. i saw her like 12 inches away from my face! aaaaah! yes, i know, mababaw. yes, i'm idolizing her, but NOT worshiping her, okay? just to be clear. nothing compares to Him, NOTHING. well, going back, i want to hug her, so tight! a hug like i'm her friend. and talk to her like we've known each other since the day we were born.

3. maging independent

um, independent in the sense that i want to decide on my own. which i actually do all the time, haha! but i mean, independent that i can do all things, and that i know they'll just there to guide me and remind me that, they are always there. but i love my parents. i really, really do. i respect their decisions for me. i'm not against it. but you know, i also want to learn how would it feels being independent. *ma, if you're reading this, it's not what you think, hindi ako bibili ng sarili kong bahay. haha!* this one's quite impossible for now, but time will tell.

2. mameet ang aking love of my life

kung nasan ka man ngayon, dumating kana.♥ God, papuntahin nyo na po.♥ i remember before, a guy friend told me, "ang swerte ng magiging first boyfriend mo." and from then, i started wondering, "bakit? paano?" hindi ko pa rin naman alam hanggang ngayon, siguro nga. sweetness is one of my weaknesses. siguro nga pag may nagbigay saken ng bulaklak, baka buhay kong ipagpapasalamat yun kay God. chocolates na kahit Hany lang, e sobrang matutuwa na ako! love letters!!!!! hello, benta pa rin naman saken yung handwritten letters! kahit para pang kinahig ng manok yung penmanship nya, basta't from the heart, sobrang maiinlove na ako. yung talagang mag e-effort, mag i-initiate at sincere, kahit yun lang, wala na akong hahanapin pang iba. when i give you my heart, i give it all.

1. makapagtravel around the world

travel!!!!!! who would not love to travel? who would not enjoy the views this world could offer? and who would not appreciate that this world is worth traveling? ooops, definitely, not me! i wish that someday i'll have my travel buddy, or if ever, he could be my partner, my lover (naks!). to see the world is one of the amazing thing ever! here in philippines, i want to go to boracay (i've never been there!), baguio (for their cold weather), el nido palawan (there's this handsome guy who wants this also. Hi, lampa in basketball, he said. hehe!), i think that's all for now. and for outside the country, i'd love to be in new york! times square and everything! then, to france, the most romantic place in the world. and to make it top three, it's europe! i want to know their culture, charot! but, seriously, anywhere in the world would do. travel to see the world!

ikaw, anong nasa bucket list mo? :)

-S