If I'm not mistaken, she already warned me last Monday I think. It was a co-incidence that she (my professor) was in the faculty room. My intention in being there is that I'll have to ask for an approval signature from one of my chosen Thesis Committee (other professor). And when I was there, she saw me, and said "Ikaw Nivera ha, di ka na naman pumasok, sige ipagpatuloy mo yan..." blah blah blah... She doesn't even gave me a chance to explain why I wasn't in her class that morning. You wanna know the reason? HAHAHAHA :D It was a lazy day for me! HAHAHAHA :D And so, I've decided not to come to school.. And, hello? 8am-11am is our class, which means at 7am I should be on my way, or else, DEAD!
And.. in that moment, while I'm waiting for an approval of my proposal, she was talking and talking and talking and talkiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing all the time! What did I do? NOTHiNG :) I don't wanna argue. And I respect her a lot, so why should I? And in the first place, it was my fault, so face the consequences! And the very few lines that she said is that.. "Wala ng special exams, quizzes ha. Sige, ibabagsak ko talaga kayo! Kala nyo." After I've absorbed that phrase, I've told myself that I should study! I should review! I should pass the quizzes! I should pass the exams! I should do this and this.. I've became more determined to do my responsibility as her student in that subject.
Review.. Review.. Review.. REViEW!
It was 4am when I've decided to sleep. When I've already memorized all the possible questions in the quiz. I've even wrote it down though it took me 4 pages of paper just to have a mini reviewer of my own. I don't wanna print it out.. 84 pages = P84! HELLO? I can jot it down >:)) And P84 is a big money for me. With my P100 allowance a day, P84 is a big lost! HAHAHA :D
The quiz came. And I was late at that time, as expected :) But I've really tried my super best just to be early bird that day but, it didn't work. I've only slept for 2 or 3 hrs after I've reviewed.. I've woke up 7am, and supposedly, if 8am is my class, I should be on my way at 7am. But, it wasn't.. Still, I went to school. Cramming and getting panic.. Because I thoght that if I came late, maybe she (my prof) won't allow me to take that quiz, since she's mad at me for what I've done to her. (But, hello? I didn't anything! I mean, I'm not really an absentee kind of student! DUH!)
And fortunately, though I came 8:30am I think, they're not yet starting the quiz. Some were still scanning, reading and memorizing their notes. Some were chatting with their seat mates.. And some were also late that day. And me? I was really reviewing hard! I've promised myself that I should pass that quiz! That I should work hard for it.. Though I've already read my notes, I'm still reading it all over again. Afraid to fail. Scared to be teased. And, the very goal I have in my mind is that, I'll to her (my professor) that I took her subject seriously. That if I got failed, shame on me!
Items were 1 to 50. HAHAHA! :D Yeah, it's like an exam when she always give us quizzes. I ain't got perfect and I'm not expecting to be. Cause I've forgot the question to other numbers. And when I approach her to please repeat it again, she just said, "Wala ng ulitan." Okay, she's really mad at me. HAHAHA! :D I'm a good girl. And I didn't react or utter a word anymore.. Instead, I left it blank.
SCORE: 39/50 = 89%
I've got the highest score in our class! SO HAPPY :) But, I didn't show it off. I just keep quite. As if I don't hear a thing. When she announced the scores, I was really nervous.. Because my classmates got 64, 72, 70.. etc. And so, I'm so confused that what if I fail? (CRAZYNESS!) And when it was my names being announced.. "Nivera, 89." The whole class ask her, "Sino yun? Galing!" And I was a little shy because they all looked at me. YEAH, ACHiEVEMENT! :)
Today, Monday. Me and my groupmate Gellai have to submit our files for our MP1 and MP2 grade, or else, grade is automatically 50. It was horrible! Because, when I gave her my part in that pages 66-71, she didn't approved it! She said, "Kumpletuhin mo yan." And when I saw the work of others, it's likely the same as mine, and mine is much better. Favoritism? Hmm. I've spent half of my two days allowance (P200) just to complete needed files. P50 left. And, without any sureness, when I gave her the files which is inside the short brown envelope, she received it! And, I was happy again! I didn't expect it! Never. Maybe, because she's only bad mood earlier.. But, though she's like that, I still look up to her. She's an amazing teacher!
Thanks Ms. Priscilla Espinili :)
I hope one day, when you accidentally read this, you won't get mad at me.
I love you Ma'am! God Bless!



